DATE SET

july second two thousand and ten
JM+AB RIGHT HERE!!!!!!!!!

tights!

I want to shout out to my new obsession

http://www.hanselfrombasel.com

I cant tell you how many times i have had my hand go through a pair or tights. no more i say! sure $42 is a retarded amount to pay for tights but look how cute!!!!!!!!!!! AND!!!!!!!!!!!! they last and last!

1,000 paper cranes

after talking to a few clients about their favorite wedding traditions one that has stuck with me is when the bride folds 1,000 paper cranes before her wedding. i wiki'd it and also got this

A thousand paper cranes is also traditionally given as a wedding gift by the folder, who is wishing a thousand years of happiness and prosperity upon the couple. It can also be gifted to a new baby for long life and good luck. Hanging a Senbazuru in one's home is thought to be a powerfully lucky and benevolent charm. It is also used as a matchmaking charm for a Japanese girl when she turns 13 years old. She would make 1000 paper cranes and give it to an admired boy.

in my one interpretation i will fold them myself with maybe a few helping hands. and hang the from the ceiling at my Detroit party, or lay them on tables at my actual wedding. when i'm done i can make a mobile like this!

inspiration!

so mila jojovich has been my wedding inspiration well before i got engaged. love the earthy almost goddess like hair and makeup. will try to re create! even thought i already have my dress. scared to post it in fear that B will see it. (kinda old fashioned i guess)

would love for him to wear a light or seersucker suit. he has no thoughts on that. in fact he would really just like to wear the same suit he wore to my brothers wedding. BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!! yet so practical. * le sigh*

sooooOOOO

silken puerta america madrid



love bug and i are going on a romantic euro honeymoon minus the wedding and marriage

i just booked our hotel for our first few days in madrid!!!!!!!! sigh! look at this place! its a germaphobes dream

JAMES WILLIAM BOYER JR. (BILL) 1946-2009

you were one rad dude

yesterday when i got home from work, i layed on the couch and starting watching some pbs channel . there was a special on spain and i got all excited about my trip. i called my mom on her home phone and she did not answer. she called me a few minns later from her cell and imformed me that my father has declined and they are not sure he will make it through the nite. she was calling me and my brother so we could say goodbye via cell phone. she sounded in good spirits and we had a nice chat. chalk it up to a state of shock or disbelief. who knows at this point. i mean we have been dealing with this for over 10 years. i say ok. let me talk to him. i will hang up when i'm done...... my mom then accidently hangs up on me. i call back. we have a good laugh. i say ok lets do this. my mom nom then informs me that my father can no longer hear out of one ear and she can not remember which one. so she will let me speak in each ear.

ear number one- dad i love you and i want you to know that

mom chimes in.... ok other ear. i tell her to just hold it up and i will hang up when i'm done.

jeez i hope its the good ear

ear number two- dad i love you and i want you to know that you were the best dad anyone could ever ask for. i'm very happy and safe. and i love you so so much

now i know it doesn't matter if he heard me. he knows i love him and all that shit.

i feel like there is a bubble around me and thought everyone seems sincere. i dont feel sincere.

i dont feel like anything is really happening. well i didn't until i just wiki'd alzheimer's

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alzheimer

and re read all the stages. i remember doing all the research long ago and the breakdown.

i wish to to go back to the old days when things were just getting started. i know i gave him all the love. i know he knows. i know he is going someplace better. i know everything happens for a reason. i know he will always be with me. i know in my heart i would never take back anything i did. i know in my heart i did everything i could.

I JUST DONT WANT NOW TO BE NOW and i dont know how to deal with it.

its fucking hell