ear number one- dad i love you and i want you to know that
mom chimes in.... ok other ear. i tell her to just hold it up and i will hang up when i'm done.
jeez i hope its the good ear
ear number two- dad i love you and i want you to know that you were the best dad anyone could ever ask for. i'm very happy and safe. and i love you so so much
now i know it doesn't matter if he heard me. he knows i love him and all that shit.
i feel like there is a bubble around me and thought everyone seems sincere. i dont feel sincere.
i dont feel like anything is really happening. well i didn't until i just wiki'd alzheimer's
and re read all the stages. i remember doing all the research long ago and the breakdown.
i wish to to go back to the old days when things were just getting started. i know i gave him all the love. i know he knows. i know he is going someplace better. i know everything happens for a reason. i know he will always be with me. i know in my heart i would never take back anything i did. i know in my heart i did everything i could.
I JUST DONT WANT NOW TO BE NOW and i dont know how to deal with it.
its fucking hell