Wednesday, February 29, 2012


Would not mind having this is my living room


This song is everywhere...
Do I love it or hate it?

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

The Moon and the Sixpence

Just finished The Moon and Sixpence last night! Which is based on the life of painter Paul Gauguin.
It could not be anymore perfect that his Polynesian era art is being displayed at the SAM.

Here are some favorite quotes and paintings

Sometimes people carry to such perfection the mask they have assumed that in due course they actually become the person they seem.

so busy yearning for the moon that he never saw the sixpence at his feet.

Why do nice women marry dull men?"
Because intelligent men won't marry nice women

I don’t think of the past. The only thing that matters is the everlasting present.

New post

over at the food blog
Bacon Vs Tofu

not much bacon

Friday, February 24, 2012

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Body Of Art

As someone who has struggled with body image her whole life I find these to be so frightening. A real statement on the pressure woman face today to achieve whatever "beauty" is today. What bullshit.

I don't struggle tooooo much anymore. When I look in the mirror and start to pick at myself I stop my mind in its tracks and pay myself 3 compliments. Even if I am totally making them up.
Someone once said that every woman is ten times more beautiful then she thinks she is.
Well Damn

Vday goodies

you get me

the aftermath

WEEKEND photos!


a very drunk Monica

the most amazing cookie (and I dont like sweets)

Kinda Blonde and

the Conservatory

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Babe of the week # 40

Mette from The Asteroid Galaxy Tour
UMMMMMMM she is fucking ADORBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just all the way ..... I'm in girlove with her

Thursday, February 16, 2012

What a huge prophecy this has been in my life

sorry that
i could never love you back
i could never care enough
in these last days

her tears fell on her pages
found me out
on her words
i don't know what to do or say

wading through
warm canals and pools clear blue
Tuscarawas flow into
the great lake

riding back
where the highway met dead end tracks
the ground is now cement and glass
so far away

heal her soul
and carry her my angel

green green youth
what about the sweetness we knew
what about what's good what's true
from those days

can't count to
all the lovers i've burned through
so why do i still burn for you
i can't say

sorry that
i could never love you back
i could never care enough
in these last days

heal her soul
carry her my angel

children blessed
gather round the home she will rest
so poor and cold in their midwest
moon and sun

flashes bringing on
my open eyes to lightning storms
the touch of mist
felt soft felt warm on my face

graving dreams
a million miles ago you seem
the star that i just don't see

words long gone
lost on journeys we walked on
lost her voice is heard along the way

sorry for
never going by your door
never feeling love like that anymore

heal her soul
carry her my angel

Monday, February 13, 2012

Edison Lightbulbs

loving the look of Edison style lightbulbs! I want them everywhere now

check out this crazy guy


totally digging on these guys from west elm too



Thursday, February 9, 2012


Check it!
Madewell remade one of my favorite dresses! This Heather Zinc babe is the perfect day or travel dress. Great for taking a nap and then running out the door. I live in mine still! Wonder if I need a backup?

I am lusting after this new bebe and these shoes!!!!!!!!!! Can I have them please?


Friday, February 3, 2012

happy things

The three basic needs for happiness are :Autonomy, Relatedness, Competence

The basic needs of humans are:subsistence, protection, affection, understanding, participation,leisure, creation, identity and

I keep going over these lists in my head. Working on happiness could be a full time job. Moving on could be a full time job. Getting Divorced and processing the past and years of your life could be a full time job.
I had quite the crash coarse last week. I was hit with the flu, exhausted. Forced to be still at home. What a bunch of shit. Doing the work as my therapist would say. Digging back up those 8 years and facing the terrible pain and acceptance. Over and over and repeat.
The life you want to live could never happen if you had not left.
You did nothing wrong.
You cant change someone or anything.
You deserve happiness.
Love is sometimes not enough.
Love should not feel like that.

I understand so many things now. Like when you have a friend that is in a abusive relationship (not that I was). They have this unbelievable denial. This is not really happening, not between me and him. You want to scream and smack them, what is wrong with you , how can you not see it? I get this all now........
These things cant happen to me. I could never lose what I thought was the love of my life. My family. All of it to a addiction. Or it could lose me to it? An Addiction could never be bigger then us? Addiction is real and its bigger then anything else.
Addiction is bigger then you, bigger then your love. You can never have the life you want with someone and that. repeat over and over.

It gets easier. It will get easier. You wont always feel this way. You will be happy again